Since July, my focus has been on my marriage and my relationship with the Lord. It has been the single most transformative period of my life, and I was happy and content to continue as such. However, I had some changes in my schedule come up unexpectedly over Christmas. Changes I felt peace about making room for.
In the past, it’s been hard for me to have a lot on my plate. I just haven’t had the bandwidth for much more than the basics like work, marriage, and family. It’s usually ended badly when I’ve taken on more. But having peace about something makes all the difference. I wanted to follow where God was leading.
But even though there’s peace, there’s still a new rhythm and balance to find, which inevitably will result in trial and error. I’ve gone through this before without much luck. I don’t want to go through that rigamarole this time. Ideally, I’d like to have it figured out before it even begins.
I took to my journal to try to sort it out, and the prompt at the top of the page was, “God can do in a moment what we cannot do in a lifetime. Ask for God’s favor, power, and intervention today.” So I started asking for him to show me what my new life balance is supposed to look like. Instead of mapping out my weeks and trying a hundred different schedules, why not go directly to the one who has the answer?
What I felt was a whisper…Remain in me.
I am the true grapevine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch of mine that doesn’t produce fruit, and he prunes the branches that do bear fruit so they will produce even more. You have already been pruned and purified by the message I have given you. Remain in me, and I will remain in you. For a branch cannot produce fruit if it is severed from the vine, and you cannot be fruitful unless you remain in me. Yes, I am the vine; you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. – John 15:8
It’s not a black and white answer like, “On Wednesday nights you’ll do this and on Friday mornings you’ll do this.” But it’s an answer that I understand and that makes it so completely simple.
Remain in Christ.
Over the last year I’ve seen the fruit of spending hours each week in prayer and in the Word. I’ve been able to handle the curve balls of life unlike any other time. My focus has been on the Lord and I have hidden myself in him. God has indeed produced fruit in my life where otherwise I would have nothing.
I felt peace, so I know that he’ll provide what I need to see it through. He’ll give me the extra energy and time. He’ll bring the resources. He’ll supply my every need.
My answer isn’t a perfectly planned schedule. It’s residing in his presence.